I joined twitter in 2011, but hadn’t really used it much. I never tweeted anything. I didn’t really follow anyone. I had not looked at it at all in years. I tried, halfheartedly, to do the math twitter blogosphere thing without using twitter. I occasionally found interesting lessons from bloggers. I’m making an effort to be an active member. There are several reasons for this.
- I am losing my love of teaching. I need to reignite it. My district’s forced testing regime has ruined my flow. My evaluations have incorrectly labeled me as Ineffective or Minimally Effective every year and the state won’t fix the errors. Many of my colleagues are disheartened and are giving in. I need to look outside my school and my town to find others who still love their job. I actually started looking for another job last month. It took an intervention from my fiance to remind me why I started teaching in the first place.
- SBG without SBL doesn’t work. I started grading my students by standard. I started spiraling their homework and tests. I didn’t change the way I teach. I just had more specific data that showed that they were not retaining information. I felt like a failure, but didn’t know how to fix it. Other math teachers in my building are seeing the same things in their students. I don’t want to just say “that’s the way it is”; I need to change.
- I need to feel like I’m part of something greater than myself. I have felt so alone with everything that is going wrong in education. I didn’t think anyone could make it better. I was tired of trying to make it better by myself and then getting crushed by the state evaluation. I need a network of people that are positive and inspiring.
I started being an active member of the twitter part of #MTBoS 3 days ago. Today is my first blog post (on a blog I made years ago and haven’t used in years). I am officially a Math-Twitter-BlogoSphere-er. Wish me luck.
This was my favorite week of school I’ve had in a long time. Last Friday was a school dance. I got to dance Gangnam Style with a group of my students. The turn out was great and the students were great! Monday I helped 6th graders make cupcakes, On Tuesday it was a Poetry Slam. Students sang, read original poetry, and read favorite poems. Other teachers and parents sang spirituals and read their own original poems. So much fun. Then honor society induction on Thursday where I had 8 students see their hard work paid off. Then yesterday was the talent show. My students performed an Irish dance routine, modern dance (think jabbawockeez), and sang beautifully. There were even great skits between acts. It was awesome!
After this year I really needed this to see why I want to stay a teacher! I really started doubting my abilities and resolve, but with the support of my friends and regular “choir rehearsals” I think I will be okay. A new principal, a new school, and a new appreciation of starting the year off strong. We’ll see how it goes…
I know I said I would be positive this post, but I haven’t felt very positive lately. My current school decided they didn’t want me back next year. I feel like I’ve learned a lot this year.
Since I was released, I have been contacted by a principal at another school. She seems pretty interested. I have also been reading up on classroom management strategies where I don’t have to yell ay my students. I’ve been reading Tools for Teaching by Fred Jones and a book series by Rick Morris. I’ve been trying it out on my current classes and things have improved.
I have also been coming home at a decent hour. My dog has been so excited. I have also found time to exercise some and I’m getting more sleep.
We have a new administrator (in-training) who has actually been helping the teachers out. Things have definitely gotten better; I just won’t be back.
I guess I can be positive after all.
Hello. I am a disillusioned middle school math educator that needs a fresh start. I am hoping that this blog will help me get out of the depressing funk I’m in
that makes me not want to come to work. I want to some ideas for lessons that are not “sanctioned”, and I’m hoping to get some feedback. I desperately need to get out of the book. I am also hoping for some classroom management ideas that I might be able to use in a middle school classroom. I am most hoping for someone to brainstorm classroom management strategies with me so I have a chance of regaining to respect of my current class. This year was really hard for me, but I’m hoping to use it as a learning experience.
Here’s an idea of what I had going on this year:
1) Last year, (my first year) I taught at an alternative high school. The students were very motivated to succeed. All of them. Those that weren’t didn’t stick around long. I was allowed to pick appropriate and engaging activities. I did not have a textbook. If I ever had any problems, administration helped me out. I found out that the students I taught increased almost 15% on the state test. Whoo!!!
2) This year I work at a middle school that was in desperate need of math teachers. I informed the principal when I was hired that I would need support in classroom management. I have not received any. Students I send to the office are sent back. Students I send to the hallway are brought back in.
3) My department head has not been helpful. I asked her for help several times a week for the entire first 4.5 weeks (we have report cards released every 4.5 weeks). Her way of helping was to remove all the grades in the first grading period and telling me to start over. She came in and told the kids that I messed up and we were starting over. Ugh! I stopped going to her for support. (She basically told me that I was not cut out to teach middle school a few weeks ago)
4) I was assigned an advisor that has not advised me much.
5) I had to learn how to teach with a textbook. The book is student centered and requires students to think about why concepts work and requires then to develop the concepts, which I love. I was not trained to use the book and got behind fast. And stayed behind. Especially when I started over.
6) I am still (9 weeks from the end of school) trying to figure out how to teach this age group. I have been inconsistent. I have tried too many management ideas. Just to be clear – I do not blame the kids. I would have acted like they are acting if I was teaching me then. It seems like elementary strategies are too … elementary. Secondary strategies (which are the only ones I know how to use) take too much for granted. My current students are
too crazy and hyper don’t have the self-control, self-respect, or organization skills I was used to. I know that is where I messed up to start with. Fun activities for the first week didn’t help either.
7) I have not been allowed to observe other classrooms except during my very short prep period. The teachers I want to observe are at other schools.
8) Since I am on a PGP I can’t move to any other schools.
I don’t know why it took me so long to get on here. I have heard of the miracles of the mathblogosphere and am following a lot of great bloggers.
I want the rest of my year to improve vastly. I bought Tools for Teaching by Fred Jones. I hasn’t come yet, but I’m hopeful.
Lastly, I refuse to “get bitchier” to get my kids to do what they need to do. I have been more stern lately and I’m trying to be more consistent with my rewards and consequences.
There has got to be a better way.
Sorry about the length and the negativity. I am just really stuck. My next post I will dig deep and find things I love about my school and my students. I promise. 🙂